LOSE

Finally
my course work marks have been released
haiz

wat to say
overall is not bad
i think
although i m the highest among d classes tat same tutor with me
but
i still
lose to sum1
haiz

i may b d best in a small group
but not d best when i m in a big group
i stil not satisfy wf my result
it seems lik i m showing off to other tat did not even manage to score well in d course work
act
i am not
is true tat many others are better than me
n summore
my score is not the highest in d whole stream
but oni a few classes who are same tutor with me
i shall b happy
but i still feel sad
coz
y am i owez b d loser
haiz
mayb i m nt gud enough
nvm
i wil continue to improve myself

recently
i found out tat i had changed a lot
i used to be a person who did not really care about d result
but nw
i owez care about it
and my fren even said tat they kinda scare to talk to me
coz avtime they chat with me
i sure wil mention about result...score...mark....study...
ntg else~
n sumhow they lable me as书呆子
whatever in my world oni about study
=.=
what i wan to say is
i am not
pls dun label me in that way
but
i hv to admit that
i really change myself to a person who oni care about study n ntg else
mayb bcoz of d pressure cum from d scholarship
n forces me to change myself
act
i m nt happy wf dis kind of changes
my happiness reduces day by day
i m nt enjoying my life...
but
i still hv to work hard
bcoz
i nid to maintain my result
but at the same time
i wil try to make myself relax
n try to njoy my uni life

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2day
d BSN call me
they told me that they wan to offer me a scholarship to study in HELP university college
it supposed to let me knw about dis 3month ago
i m not goin to start again as i had study foundation in UTAR for 3month
haiz
what i wan to say is
d GOV reali very 'efficient'
wateva
i had reject it
but kinda worry
bcoz
scare they wil not let me to get d scholarship anymore during degree
haiz
i dun wan bother it anymore

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