Yesterday I have participated an audition
it is all out of sudden
I only decided to join it on the day before the audition
I just wanna have fun
and I want to see how well my singing is
singing is the interest that I can proud of myself
after the competition in secondary school
I have lost a lot of confidence
and started to think am my singing that worst?
However
I stop these negative thought
and I decided to give myself a chance
to prove to myself that my singing maybe not the best but not the worst either
However
because it is too rush for me to do preparation
and I admit that I didn't really prepare well
During the audition
I forget lyrics
yet
I did sing well
I can hear my voice is wonderful
even my friends also said that it will be very perfect if I didn't forget any lyrics
I am so happy with this answer
although I did forget the lyrics
but I still manage to sing three songs
崇拜，我怀念的
and this one really shock me when the judges ask me whether I have any english song
I can't really think of any at that time
and one song come out in my mind that is
I m' yours
I sang
and they enjoy it
This is the biggest satisfaction
I sing not to win the competition
but to let the people to listen to my voice and really enjoy it
^^
although I think I will not enter the second round
but i really satisfied with my performance
and now I am really excited with the comment
It maybe a bad comment
but still it is a chance for me to improve my singing
So happy~~~~^^
Last week truly a busy week
but I am not busy with studying
but busy of doing other activities~~
accidentally I became the helper of different event
one is the suduko event
and another is the Utar Anniversary Festivals
I am so lucky to be the helper who can dress formally and stay in an air conditioned environment
PLUS I can sit somemore
XD hahaha
Because I am the helper of the registration counter mah~~~hehe
despite of being helper
I also get a chance to spend my valentine days with FRIENDS
actually we are originally having a FOREVER ALONE PARTY~XD
but end up we just have our dinner together in KFC
and the funny thing is my friend keep ask us to finish our meal fast
as he scare the KFC workers will come and hit us
(I beg you all read the recent news about this)
anyway
do have a great time with them~~
After this
will have no more time to have fun anymore
I has a busy schedule after this
exams and assignment will occupy all my free time
T.T
FIGHTING bah~~~
Being friends
which means that we want to know about each other
and when the time past
we tend to know well about each other
it should be like that isn't it
but why things just happen in that way
sometimes I am really curious
Do my friends know me?
or Do I actually know well about them?
I thought I know well about them
but them just give me a response like DON'T PRETEND THAT YOU KNOW MUCH ABOUT ME!!!
am I wrong??
I really think that I know well about them
but they just say I don't know them
on the other way
Do they know me either??
they think they know me too
but how deeply they know about me?
sometimes the things I have done not as some ways they think
I just really don't understand that
I thought they will really understand how I feel
and will be empathy to my situation
since I have told them how I feel
but somehow they think they did
but actually they didn't
instead they misinterpret your thought
Friends, I didn't expect you all understand well about me
what I want is not a perfect friends who put 100% concern and cares on me
all I want is simply just a thing
that is Stand by my side when I really need you to no need to say anything but just stand by my side that is enough
Is that greedy??
maybe it is...
but sometimes I just feel like I don't have any friends
as when I needed someone end up just myself
I really need someone who can give me support sometimes just sometimes.......:(
Am I a person who make people disgust when they think about me?
I used to be a friendly person for those who know well about me
Even a person who first met me will say
I am a person who is nice to talk with
But...
recently
I started to think
am I still a nice person to them?
Don't know why
maybe I am too sensitive or It is true that my classmate started to leave me away
they seems like have nothing to talk with me
sometimes when I am in the gang
I seems like is the one who is out of gang
they play
fooling around
but they will not play with me
and even worst they said they have pressure to be with me
they can;t really joke or play with me
or maybe I should say they don't dare to do so
they said I am too serious
well
maybe yes
I am serious in my study
I can't blame them
because the time I spent with them were my study time
I have to pay attention in my study
so maybe it is true that I really serious
but it doesn't mean that I am a person where my life just filled with study stuff
I do like many things
I am also a crazy person in front of my good friends
maybe it is just my problem that
I really can't release the true self in front of them
or maybe our relationship is not that deep yet
really sorry if you all started to hate me because I am too serious
I have not much friends in my university
is kinda sad to hear that when some one ask you:"are you alone?where is your friend?"
this kind of question is the most frequent question that I heard recently
I just smile and act nothing
what should I answer
some of them will even give me a pity look
some of them may think that I am a person who love to stay alone
am I pity for being alone
all my good friend are in other stream
two of them who same stream with me have their new groups of friends
all of them have their gang
many friends
they talk
laugh
play
there is no space for me to be in their gang
Currently addicted with the song of 2011 Korean drama"Dream High"
the song they sing were so meaningful and I like this song so much because of the lyrics~~
Dream High – Suzy (miss A), Wooyoung & Taecyeon (2PM), JOO, Kim Soo Hyun ( OST Dream High )English
I dream high I dream a dream
When it’s tough, I close my eyes and
The moment my dream comes true
continue to recall and get up
at the end of fear today too I tremble
Like a baby bird, would it fall, unable to fly
repeatedly I can do it, can my dream come true
every time I’m fearful, my belief walking step by step again
