Bad day

Have a really bad day today

Feeling a great disappointment on myself for doing so bad for my presentation

although it was just a normal classroom discussion

I just don't get it why can't I present as usual

I said things in a really wrong sequences

talking nonsense that I don't even understand what am I talking about

I really stressed up when I saw the tutor ignore me when I can't continue my presentation
maybe the tutor didn't meant it
but still it frighten me

after the class
I cried
due to the failure and the embarrassment just now

Everything go so wrong on myself

I really couldn't accept it

God! What am I doing??

Is it because of lacking of sleep 

that what makes everything

Perhaps

it was part of the reason

But

What makes most of the reasons

is because of the tutor himself

why I said so

he give a lot of pressure in me

I don't know why

since the first day I paired up with the girl and her friends

I can't even breath well during the PR tutorial class

My confidence just disappear in just few seconds

I used to be confident with my presentation skill

and today everything seems to be different

maybe because of her

She is good in English

I admit it

She is friendly

She is nice

I am okay with what she has

however

sometimes the way she speak with tutor and lecturer

is like treating them as friend rather than a tutor or lecturer

Somehow the tutor is not happy with the way she speak to him

Is not that I am too sensitive

but I can sense that the tutor doesn't like students to behave in such manners

maybe they expect to have more respect from students

and this make the tutor has had a bad impression to her and even worst 

the whole group of people which same group with her including me myself

the way he said

the things he speak to the class

is like he indirectly showing that he was really unsatisfied with what she have done or spoke

I am not sure that whether I was too sensitive to sense this

because of this reasons

I have think too much and worry too much

I really afraid that

because the tutor dislike her attitude and indirectly dislike the people who get along with her

So means

no matter how hard we work

there are still dissatisfaction of the tutor toward our performance

I really afraid with this

What the tutor said meant everything

and he is the one who mark our assignments and look at our presentation

I really afraid that he will have prejudiced on any of us

and we will have a hard time for the entire semester

thus

when think of this

it gave me a lot of pressure

and make me become nervous when talking to him face to face

Hope that the tutor will not prejudiced our group...I beg for it...

I really don't like this kind of stuff happen to me...

if it happen so...it is truly unfair to all of us...