Audition

Yesterday I have participated an audition
it is all out of sudden
I only decided to join it on the day before the audition
I just wanna have fun
and I want to see how well my singing is
singing is the interest that I can proud of myself
after the competition in secondary school
I have lost a lot of confidence
and started to think am my singing that worst?
However
I stop these negative thought
and I decided to give myself a chance
to prove to myself that my singing maybe not the best but not the worst either
However
because it is too rush for me to do preparation
and I admit that I didn't really prepare well
During the audition
I forget lyrics
yet
I did sing well
I can hear my voice is wonderful
even my friends also said that it will be very perfect if I didn't forget any lyrics
I am so happy with this answer
although I did forget the lyrics
but I still manage to sing three songs
崇拜，我怀念的
and this one really shock me when the judges ask me whether I have any english song
I can't really think of any at that time
and one song come out in my mind that is
I m' yours
I sang
and they enjoy it
This is the biggest satisfaction
I sing not to win the competition
but to let the people to listen to my voice and really enjoy it
^^
although I think I will not enter the second round
but i really satisfied with my performance
and now I am really excited with the comment
It maybe a bad comment
but still it is a chance for me to improve my singing
So happy~~~~^^

Sing for your life~~~~

A busy week

Last week truly a busy week
but I am not busy with studying
but busy of doing other activities~~
accidentally I became the helper of different event
one is the suduko event
and another is the Utar Anniversary Festivals
I am so lucky to be the helper who can dress formally and stay in an air conditioned environment
PLUS I can sit somemore
XD hahaha
Because I am the helper of the registration counter mah~~~hehe

despite of being helper
I also get a chance to spend my valentine days with FRIENDS
actually we are originally having a FOREVER ALONE PARTY~XD
but end up we just have our dinner together in KFC
and the funny thing is my friend keep ask us to finish our meal fast
as he scare the KFC workers will come and hit us
(I beg you all read the recent news about this)
 anyway
do have a great time with them~~

After this
will have no more time to have fun anymore
I has a busy schedule after this
exams and assignment will occupy all my free time
T.T
FIGHTING bah~~~

Do you know

Being friends
which means that we want to know about each other
and when the time past
we tend to know well about each other
it should be like that isn't it
but why things just happen in that way
sometimes I am really curious
Do my friends know me?
or Do I actually know well about them?
I thought I know well about them
but them just give me a response like DON'T PRETEND THAT YOU KNOW MUCH ABOUT ME!!!
am I wrong??
I really think that I know well about them
but they just say I don't know them
on the other way
Do they know me either??
they think they know me too
but how deeply they know about me?
sometimes the things I have done not as some ways they think
I just really don't understand that
I thought they will really understand how I feel
and will be empathy to my situation
since I have told them how I feel
but somehow they think they did
but actually they didn't
instead they misinterpret your thought

Friends, I didn't expect you all  understand well about me
what I want is not a perfect friends who put 100% concern and cares on me
all I want is simply just a thing
that is
Stand by my side when I really need you to
no need to say anything but just stand by my side that is enough
Is that greedy??
maybe it is...
but sometimes I just feel like I don't have any friends
as when I needed someone end up just myself



I really need someone who can give me support
sometimes
just sometimes.......:(

讨人厌的我？

Don't know since when I have a thought in my mind

Am I a person who make people disgust when they think about me?

I used to be a friendly person for those who know well about me

Even a person who first met me will say 

I am a person who is nice to talk with

But...

recently

I started to think

am I still a nice person to them?

Don't know why

maybe I am too sensitive or It is true that my classmate started to leave me away

they seems like have nothing to talk with me

sometimes when I am in the gang

I seems like is the one who is out of gang

they play

fooling around

but they will not play with me

and even worst they said they have pressure to be with me

they can;t really joke or play with me

or maybe I should say they don't dare to do so

they said I am too serious

well

maybe yes

I am serious in my study

I can't blame them 

because the time I spent with them were my study time

I have to pay attention in my study

so maybe it is true that I really serious

but it doesn't mean that I am a person where my life just filled with study stuff

I do like many things 

I am also a crazy person in front of my good friends

maybe it is just my problem that

I really can't release the true self in front of them

or maybe our relationship is not that deep yet

really sorry if you all started to hate me because I am too serious

I have not much friends in my university

is kinda sad to hear that when some one ask you:"are you alone?where is your friend?"

this kind of question is the most frequent question that I heard recently

I just smile and act nothing

what should I answer
some of them will even give me a pity look
some of them may think that I am a person who love to stay alone
am I pity for being alone

all my good friend are in other stream

two of them who same stream with me have their new groups of friends

all of them have their gang
many friends
they talk
laugh
play
there is no space for me to be in their gang

I am the only one who is always alone

Is my problem?

am I that disgust?

that everyone don't want to make friends with me?

am I too cool?

or fierce??

I really gonna figure out where is the problem

孤寂

是你的选择

还是

是你被人讨厌的证明？

梦想的热诚

昨天我通宵了

整夜没睡

不是失眠

而是没有想睡的感觉

看韩剧Dream High

这真是让我很过瘾的一部剧啊

又是哭又是笑的

剧情丰富

演员个个都不错

我超爱剧中的老师

他不打压学生的梦

也不放弃他的学生并协助学生完成梦想

我一口气看完了十多集

你根本无法停下来

因为实在太棒的关系^^

看这部剧

虽是说着一班发明星梦的孩子

有点不实际

但你真的不得不为他们那份

简单且单纯的梦

鼓舞

对他们那份执着

那份热诚

感到快乐

是的

梦

有时真的会不切实际

但这就是它的美妙之处

难道不是吗？

追求自己喜欢的

自己向往的

不是每个人都能办到的

毕竟现实

真的让人忘了自己的梦想

或是

剥夺了你拥有梦想的权利

因为有时

被现实捆绑着的我们

因着一些虚有的一切

我们过着没有梦的生活

那份炽热

那份感动

我们无法领受

因为梦

被淡忘了

我希望

我能像这班

有着梦

战赢现实

精彩地活着

因着一份执着

而快乐

I have a DREAM

But I hope my DREAM wasn’t just a DREAM

But it is something that I can

 feel the pain

 the touch

the happiness

the sadness

I hope it brings me more than these…

We may not realize the dream that we have

Or maybe we will

No one will know

But the road towards the dream

Will have tears and laughter

That colour our life

Make us feel that we are truly alive

A person who live with a dream

A real living person…

SO

Dream High!

Fly High!

朋友这回事

朋友

可以有很多

甚至到处都可以有

只要你学会和人沟通

懂得与人交流

要与别人做朋友并不难

然而

你曾后悔交朋友吗?

因交朋友

需要付出情感

然而当你的付出

被一味的践踏

那种滋味

你可否承受得住呢？

对啊

每段感情

难免比不了

会有伤害

而感情越深

伤害同时会倍增

但

你又能阻止自己真的不对你在乎的朋友们好吗？

你有把握

不对他们付出关心？

对他们仅仅只是聊聊天

谈谈笑？

其他就不重要？

办不到对吧？

因为在乎

所以情感已经付出了

所以无可避免伤害也同样造成了

而一些人

却还是无法理解你所受的伤

更可悲的是

他们忽视了

选择视而不见

或是

说了一句

没什么大不了的！

这是什么话呢？

是不在乎的意思吗？

有些人说

女人

很麻烦

为什么总爱分级别
好朋友，普通朋友，同学
每一个级别就有着不一样的感觉

朋友对男生而言

都是同等的

很好或不好

这些对他们而言一点也不重要
朋友就是朋友
没有说比较好或不好的

这么说来

即便你把他当好朋友

他们也可能把你和一般或新认识的朋友对待

因为对他们而言

朋友都一样

然而

其实

差别待遇不是不存在的

而是

他们不晓得

他们对那些他们所谓一样的朋友

已经有着不一样的待遇

我有吗？是你们自己敏感而已。。。

你们想太多了

这就是他们的回答

男生总认为是女生敏感

到底真的是我们女生过于敏感

还是其实是男生

不够细心？

有时真羡慕他们的不细心啊?

因为至少

我们看什么不用那么透彻

那么仔细

那么了解状况

至少这样

伤害也会减少

人生也可能更快乐

其实有时很认同一句话

（如果有男生朋友在阅读，请勿生气，这只是我个人的看法）

男生是下半身思考的动物

即便我们女生想的东西已经超过一百遍了

他们可能也不晓得

这是真的吧？

男生和女生对待朋友可能真的有差吧

所以不要奢望你重视的男生朋友会同样的重视你

或是你在乎的他们会同样在乎你

因为会受伤

算了吧

凡是看开吧

人生才能不受捆绑

才会快乐

笑一笑吧～X)

Dream High

Currently addicted with the song of 2011 Korean drama"Dream High"
the song they sing were so meaningful and I like this song so much because of the lyrics~~


 Dream High – Suzy (miss A), Wooyoung & Taecyeon (2PM), JOO, Kim Soo Hyun ( OST Dream High ) English

I dream high I dream a dream

When it’s tough, I close my eyes and

The moment my dream comes true

continue to recall and get up

at the end of fear today too I tremble

Like a baby bird, would it fall, unable to fly

repeatedly I can do it, can my dream come true

every time I’m fearful, my belief walking step by step again

I dream high I dream a dream

When it’s tough, I close my eyes and

The moment my dream comes true

continue to recall and get up

I believe I can fly high

one day me above the sky

wings stretched out, more free than anyone else

flying rising high

I need bravery to overcome

firstly pick myself up rise again and dare to run

once again believe in me and my destiny

climb over every wall taller than me

I dream high I dream a dream

When it’s tough, I close my eyes and

The moment my dream comes true

continue to recall and get up

I believe I can fly high

one day me above the sky

wings stretched out, more free than anyone else

flying rising high

Dream high a chance to fly high

Now bye bye to all that hurts

try flying high like the stars in the sky

your dream will unfold

starting from now

don’t be afraid of the future made by your hands

now walk totally confident

unstoppable destiny is destiny

now we soar up high

for you, this whole new fantasy

so from now, take my hand here

from now on, our aim

one dream and not give up

youthful passion all here dream high

I dream high I dream a dream

When it’s tough, I close my eyes and

The moment my dream comes true

continue to recall and get up

I believe I can fly high

one day me above the sky

wings stretched out, more free than anyone else

flying rising high

Dream High～～！！！

also share with you all a video

i did find them sing really well~~~

enjoy~~^^